life slips by sometimes and i wonder where it went. i am beginning to realise i wasted a whole year away last year. hope i did not want, thoughts i could not help and yearning for something that wasn't there and will never come back. There was so much more i could have done, so much more i could've learnt, but maybe that year needed to be wasted for me to understand and appreciate fully the extent and support that i have from people i never thought possible.


This year is not one for me to waste. every opportunity that arises i shall contemplate fully and give it a chance without brushing it aside. *grIn* and bear it maybe 'twill flourish, maybe it won't. but i'll take it in my stride and not regret. Alas, i shall break your heart honey, but you can't say that i did not want to give it a fair go.


I shall stop praying for you tonight.