For the life of me I can’t understand why I just can’t fall asleep tonight. God knows I’m tired enough and yet... there’s trouble brewing ahead. I can feel it. Uneasiness maybe caused by being left alone for too long a time. I have to get up early on the morrow and yet I can’t make myself go to sleep to get up.

This time last year I was a pathetic heap. This time this year I feel uneasy and my heart is racing – for what I do not know. Maybe I have a ton of things to do tomorrow, but looking at them they aren’t major things; simple things, nothing life changing, and yet here I feel as if I have neglected something. Ah my forgetfulness. But it cannot be. I managed to clear my time and make space for “stuff” and yet still there’s much on my mind although I cannot pinpoint what exactly.

Sigh impending doom maybe, but I know not what I am up against. Something doesn’t feel right. I shall call on the morrow. But I have had no dreams of death lately. Pray.