Was there ever a time i regretted missing out on a chance to like someone? Never - until last night. I had my first taste of slight regret and a feeling of what if and what might have been. A queasy feeling in my tummy and wishful thinking over the last bit of my Roche Gelati bugged me. First year in Uni and i really had no idea until the chance that came around was lost. Everyone seemed to know but me and i used to get knowing grins and strange queries. Irksome but I didn't feel a thing. OK, so like Boo would say-gwen is blur case. Yes, i honestly am when it comes to these things, but i never regret. Last night i regretted a bit, last night i stayed up and pondered. Because after a long while, i accidentally met you and it was a strange feeling because i never saw you in that way before. What ifs and what might have beens, would i be happier than i was now? Life is such that it's wrong place, wrong time, wrong life.
Ben put it down to being lonely and needy. Maybe. This would be the fish i caught but threw back into the sea and my, it has grown hasn't it? Ain’t right, wouldn’t work. You’re happy where you are.
Cest la vie. I’ll shelf this one as lonely and frivol. Stupid mind wonderings...